Feel the Sunrise

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shrimp-boat-sunrise-1445726-mSun rose, bold and brash,
Flaming bronze across the sky.
Horizontal in its peeking,
Not yet determined to push away the night.

I sat still as stone,
My feet grown useless,
A part of the splintered floor beneath them.
I sat still as stone, paralyzed by anticipation,
Awaiting glory.

The air is clear.
Not devoid of color, warmth or sound,
Indeed full of bird song,
Tenderness and blushes, tints, pops of pigment.
Waiting…

It is clear of confusion—
That slept away.
Clear of fear and timidity,
Not yet risen for the day.

Sun bold, streaks upward,
Advancing on the night.
But as I listen and feel for glory,
Eyes close to restrain my sight.

Have I felt the sunrise before?
This so remarkable, could I forget?

First a small toe, then five
As heat seeps up my ankle.
Goosebumps swell, pop and fade
As radiance explores me.

Glory.
I feel it stealing over me, slowly,
Awakening each pore.
Devours knee, thigh, waist,
Shoulder, neck, cheek…
And I am Glory.

Melded one and melted into
Divine joy, newness, declaration.
Life Lives! It calls:
Awaken.

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Glorified in Consumption

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On Monday, I referenced  John Piper in his article, “To Drink Orange Juice to the Glory of God.” 

As a follow up, I decided it would be valuable to provide you with the whole article, for a fuller perspective on the topic.

Coming out of an eating disorder, my ability to eat, not to mention my motives for eating were completely topsy-turvy. Anxiety welled in my throat at the mere idea of certain foods. How could I ever take those thoughts and fears captive so that I could do everything, yes, even eating, for God’s glory?

Here’s John:

Some of you then asked the practical question: Well, how do you “eat and drink” to the glory of God? Say, orange juice for breakfast?

God is All About HIS Self-esteem

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What if God gave us marriage more to make us HOLY than to make us HAPPY? ~ unknown author, taken from Judi Rossi’s book Enhancing Your Marriage

Esteem. The Bible admonishes us not to anything from selfish ambition or vain conceit. As I look back over the expensive efforts I’ve put into my marriage – be they financially, emotionally or energy expensive – I have to wonder – who was I doing this for?

It’s true that I want my marriage to honor God, but what has been my driving motivation? I recently started an online counseling program, to hold me accountable in my eating disorder recovery. I’ve come a long way, but I know that aftercare is essential (been there, done that relapse thing). Within the first two days of work, my mentor has brought one common theme to the forefront:

My motivation for recovery is the determining factor in my success.

John Piper says, “God is most glorified in me, when I am most satisfied in Him.”

Simply put, God is all about God’s Esteem. My ultimate joy hinges on my full-time employment to Esteem Him. When I esteem my Father above my own will and success He will see to my good. That’s the essence of Romans 8:28.

Through A Woman’s Healing Journey, and Enhancing Your Marriage and through Immanuel Prayer I have discovered that God was absolutely intentional about making me Patrick Kelly’s wife. Therefore, my investment in this marriage and my determination for it’s success must be for God (its Creator’s) glory. If I am simply concerned with my happiness and our compatibility then I should probably have walked away a long time ago. BUT, as I have strive hard toward God and He nudges me closer to my husband I am finding that I am more complete and joyful than I have ever been. Oh the goodness of God!

So, whether I eat or drink (conquering anorexia), whether you wed or choose singleness, whether I do anything at all, it must be for God’s glory if it is to succeed.

Praying With Moses

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This morning I prayed with Moses.

If your presence will not go out with me, do not let me leave this house. How else will anyone know that I belong to you? How will they know that Jesus makes life on earth different, better and eternal life possible? You, Oh Lord are my distinction, my definition. You are my hope and all that I live for. But if I go out in my own strength, I dishonor your name.

Read Exodus 33: 17-23, to hear God’s covenant response to His children when they pray this way.

And the Lord said to Moses, “This very thing that you have spoken I will do, ofor you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name.” Moses said, “Please pshow me your glory.” And he said, “I will make all my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name ‘The Lord.’ And I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy. But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for sman shall not see me and live.” And the Lord said, “Behold, there is a place by me where you shall stand on the rock, and while my glory passes by I will put you in a tcleft of the rock, and I will ucover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will take away my hand, and you shall see my back, but my face shall not be seen.”

I am so fearful of squandering the most precious relationship I have. Father, don’t let me lose the joy of my salvation. Forgive me for being so easily distracted. Oh Father, I hunger for your nearness and your fellowship. I hear you calling me to listen more intently. What you have to say is infinitely more valuable than anything I would say.

Zech. 2:13

“Be silent, all flesh, before the Lord, for he has roused himself from his holy dwelling.”

 

Abundance

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I am wrapped in abundance,

Like corduroy cloaks

Of seasonal sensations.

 

Brown, gold, red, orange,

Cascade from blue

And autumn wrenched branches.

 

A maelstrom of glory

YOUR GLORY

Swirls around me.

Comfort in consistency.

 

Powerful, predictable

To know this pulse of peace.

Next season will arrive at

Your stroke of the clock.

And winter will hustle

The year away.

 

My little world

Swirls around me

In cacophony of curiosity.

I only know

I trust only

The predictable peace

That you afford.

 

Whether blinded sun hides today,

Glory yet, for it blooms this morn.

Whether blinded by uncertainty,

Joy yet, this morn.

Glory. Peace.