I’ve been swamped by so many emotions lately – swamped, swimming, drowning, bogged-down-in, drenched, emmersed and soaked! Got the picture?
So, last night, after a lovely day that included getting a jump start on some moving stuff, a nice 30 minute nap, a visit with church friends over coffee and a good-bye visit with a running friend over a beer on the B’Merrill’s patio, I walked to my bed last night, lay down on the floor and wept.
“Jesus, I’m so tired going from high to low. I’ve had a great day and now I’m down, sad, lonely, fearful and weepy. Why!? I’m so sorry, it must be a lack of faith, forgive me for not trusting you so completely that my emotions are level and predictable.”
As Christians shouldn’t we be that way? Nothing rocks our boat, “God’s in control”, right? We shouldn’t ever be upset, or feel sad and we especially shouldn’t swing unpredictable through a range of emotions like we’re Tarzan careening through the trees!
Now don’t get me wrong. I’m well aware of the scriptures that adjure us not to fear, not to be anxious, not to worry. But, as I lay face down on the carpet, I sensed the Holy Spirit say, “Why are you confessing this as if I’m upset with you? I’m not angry or disappointed or chastising you. i want to comfort you, if you will only be quite and allow me to get closer.”
Is. 30:15 This is what the Almighty Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says:
You can be saved by returning to me. You can have rest. You can be strong by being quiet and by trusting me. But you don’t want that.
Then He asked me to think about Jesus. Christ was fully human. His strength, wisdom, perfection and obedience were a result of complete, exemplary dependence on the Father. Christ walked in and was filled with the Holy Spirit, just as we can and should be. This enables righteousness, which brings peace which blossoms into full, satisfying, unconquerable joy!
Think with me:
1. Christ was sad John 11:28-38
2. Jesus had real joy John 15:11
3. Jesus might have felt anxious
Now I know that anxiety is generally considered a negative emotion, but try to really imagine how Christ felt in Gethsemane. He did not waver, he did not compromise His obedience, but I think this is where we can really see His humanity digging deep into his relationship with the Father and the power of the Holy Spirit. He flesh was certainly not comfortable with the idea of the pending cross.
And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.
4. Jesus felt lonely Mark 14:27, 37
So, I got up off the floor. I picked up my Bible and prayed tearfully through Ps. 91. God is not human. He does not expect us to be divine. Hebrews 4:15, Matt. 8:17
He longs to comfort us, Is 30:18, longs to have compassion. He is just and good. He is utterly NOT human!!