From Oswald Chambers:
“To choose to suffer means that there is something wrong; to choose God’s will even if it means suffering is a very different thing. No healthy saint ever chooses suffering; he chooses God’s will, as Jesus did, whether it means suffering or not.”
My Utmost For His Highest pg. 223
“Jesus never estimated His life along the line of the greatest use. God puts His saints where they will glorify Him, and we are no judges at all of where that is.”
Isn’t that amazing? Both thoughts. I get so stuck on how much I am suffering, sometimes. Then Abby-the-Martyr kicks in and I start to consider choosing to suffer so that I can boast in myself. That’s not Christ’s way. Jesus chooses the Father’s will above all else – be that blessing or pain. Jesus entrusted himself fully to the Father with the confidence that God’s nature is good and He himself is loving.
The other half the time, I am stuck in a cycle of measuring my productivity. On nearly any spectrum, I’m not all that successful – no career, no kids, no publishing recognition, nothing to claim as my own – but Jesus. Who am I to determine where God should place me and how I am of the greatest use to Him?
Father, make me more useful to you daily. Let me decrease that you might increase. Make Jesus the consuming passion of my life.