I watched and waited, wondering
Why you willfully wished me away.
Wasn’t I worthy?
Wasn’t I wary?
For once unguarded
I believed you would choose me.
For once I wished I was the one
You want, no less, no more
Than your pleasure.
But, as I watched and waited,
As I wondered if you would remember,
It dawned on me in white waves.
Like washing my soul with pebbles.
Not your choice, not the one.
Not the wish you waited for,
Or the companion of your pleasure.