Lose my Life (my perfection) to Find It


I was plowing through old snippets, journal jots and tiddles and half notes to someone at sometime, when I came across this. Funny, no, awesome, how perfect God’s timing is to resurrect old lessons He’s taught and gently remind me.

Hope it brightens your heart today too:

To a Friend,

I completely agree and just this morning God was quickening my heart to this truth. You know Jesus says in Matt. 10:39 that we must lose our lives to find it. I have been mulling that over thinking: I must “lose” my fake happy, my artificial perfect (my attempts to create a perfect body or perfect diet or control my world) in order to find true happiness–true joy. We cannot grasp the real LIFE of Christ while our fists are tightly clinging to a poor substitute.

In the Greek, the word lose can be translated: render useless. I have to render useless all my “perfect” happy. And that may cost me something, it will cost me my control, my eating disorder identity and many other things. But, it WILL find abundant life that Christ gives me!

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4 thoughts on “Lose my Life (my perfection) to Find It

  1. You definitely have a way with words Abby ! I felt the same way and it worked. I remember your piece on “drop it” (last year ?) and that made perfect sense too. Looking back, I can see that when I opened my hands top let go, God took care of me and my open hands were filled with the things I needed. You cannot put gifts in clenched fists.

    Also, we were taught by Jesus in Luke 16:10-12 (NCV)
    “10 Whoever can be trusted with a little can also be trusted with a lot, and whoever is dishonest with a little is dishonest with a lot. 11 If you cannot be trusted with worldly riches, then who will trust you with true riches? 12 And if you cannot be trusted with things that belong to someone else, who will give you things of your own?”

    Looking at that lesson, my experience and your thoughts, it seems that when we focus on the bigger things, the smaller things are mysteriously taken care of and we find the real joy. We can enjoy the beauty in the world, recognise the good people, use the gifts we have been given and feel no guilt or envy.

  2. I needed this reminder today, Abby. Such truth here. Thank you for sharing!

    In a world that focuses so much attention on “finding yourself”, “making a name for yourself” and fighting to make it to the top of the American Dream . . . it is difficult to have the mindset of Christ – dying to our created self and resting in our true, God-created self.

    1. Hi, Michelle! Yay, I’m so glad God spoke to you through this too 🙂
      It’s funny how “backward” God does things. Everything about Him and the way He works in our lives seems contrary to the way the world tell us things “should” be. Because He Lives

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