I Will Step Up, I Will Be Faithful–I Will Even Stay Home

HOME-E-O-STAY-SIS — We will not be using the typical spelling or implied definition of the word. (Just didn’t want you to think the editor had lost her marbles!)

My first royalty check on the second book, Beyond Belief: Jesus Saved You, Now What? was less that $15. When they tell you that being an author is not lucrative–take them seriously. Of course there are exceptions; I’m not one of them. And perhaps that’s in part, or mostly my own fault. Let me start back at the beginning.

When my second book came I out, I was tired of writing. I felt God leading me toward editing (which I love) and He opened wide several doors. I stepped through with enthusiasm and God has blessed my new endeavors. So I quietly allowed the door to close behind me, effectively closing the chapter on my books.

To be quite honest, I hate promoting my books. I think every author does really, but I simply decided not to do it. Other than requesting a few reviews and a handful of comments on Facebook, I left that job to my agent.

Suddenly, I was swamped with discontentment and insecurity. I lay in bed Monday night and felt a familiar wash of melancholy and panic: What am I doing with my life? What if I don’t receive any more clients for editing? What if my books really go nowhere? What was the point of writing? Maybe I shouldn’t even call myself a writer. I can’t even come up with blog posts anymore. Maybe I should go back to school. Maybe I should get an outside job. Maybe my life is just pathetic. What am I here for, Lord?

All I do is stay home and keep myself busy with what–work that maybe doesn’t even matter? Suddenly, my contentment at home, my home-eo-stay-sis was interrupted. 

Forlornly, I took my tears the the Father the next morning. Gently, as He always does, he layered answers from His word with sermons and affirmation from friends.

I listened to a sermon from Elevation Church the other day, a guest sermon by the author of Through The Eyes of a Lion. 

I won’t give it away, but his comments about focus, vision and sticking with it–doing the same things a new way–instead of “calling envy” and longing for a more important, significant calling, struck me. 

Then, God’s Word in Philippians 1:6, “He who began a good work … will complete it.” God doesn’t stop halfway. And Galatians 6:9, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.“–Don’t give up! And then the clincher that tells me I am expected to be faithful too: “But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.”

Next, in Bible study this morning, a sweet friend confessed to feeling the same way recently. That night as she prayed with her husband, he voluntarily closed the prayer (which apparently, he rarely does.) His words: “Thank you for my wife, thank you that she is such a good friend.”

Her heart soared. No matter how low she felt in the eyes of the world, no matter how small her calling felt at home, her husband’s affirmation that she was his friend confirmed to her that she is smack in the center of her calling. And it encouraged my heart as well. That’s why I stay home–for the sake of my marriage, for the sake of my home, because this is the first and highest calling God has given me. Everything else that He’s blessed me to do falls neatly under that banner of wife, homemaker … friend.

Finally, God prodded my heart concerning faithfulness to the good work I began–faithfulness to work diligently to put the books He wrote through me into the hands of as many people as possible. A crazy idea occurred to me, and mustering my courage, I grabbed a copy of my book and marched into a local, Christian-owned coffee shop.

“Hi! I recently wrote a Bible study and I was wondering if you would permit me to place a few copies in your coffee shop for free. I’d like to put a business card in them in case readers would like to buy some. But would you permit me to simply offer a few free books to your customers?”

Their response was overwhelming. First of all, the only people working that shift were the owners (exactly who I needed to talk to). Then, not only did they agree to let me place some books in their store, but they offered to host a book signing. A women’s Bible study group meets there every Thursday night: “Would you want to have a book signing on a Thursday evening? You could start before they arrive and then you’d have an audience that is exactly suited to your book … ”

The rest of the conversation was equally uplifting. We briefly shared our stories, our desires to further God’s kingdom and our understanding of His call on our lives.

Only God could have suggested that idea to me and then prepared the way for my request to be received and blessed.

Oh! and one more thing. Out of the blue a wonderful Christian radio host asked me to do an interview with her this Saturday on Beyond Belief! (Details to come!)

So, I will step up. I will be faithful. I will be content in my home, diligent in and proud of my calling.

5 thoughts on “I Will Step Up, I Will Be Faithful–I Will Even Stay Home

  1. Well done Abby ! Sticketh thou with it !
    From my experience (with many years on the planet), God never reveals His whole plan in one go, we’re given just one step at a time. Even then, the old enemy is constantly waiting to try trip us up. Be aware of it. As I told you before, the heavy feeling of being under attack tends to come just as we are about to do something good, otherwise the enemy lulls us into a warm, unproductive bubble of complacency.

    Then of course we need to remember that what we don’t ask for we don’t get. God is remarkable at sorting out small things if we ask him to, but then why shouldn’t he, if he loves us ?

    The other thing, the Lord may well be reminding you to keep a balance between learning and teaching. The knowledge and wisdom tanks need topping up regularly. (A gentle nudge to look at what’s really going on in the world to your east, taking the MSM with a pinch of salt and seeking the truth).

    Anyway, good news with your book. I’m sure the people owning and visiting the coffee shop will be very happy to have found the book and the very special author !



    1. David,

      So good to hear from you! Yes, I’ve been keeping an eye (those less intently than you, LOL) on the current events. I wonder what are your thoughts about current events and biblical prophecy? While I certainly believe God’s plan is always in motion–He is sovereign and has determined the end from the beginning, I don’t believe that what is happening now here and in the east is directly indicative on the end times. For centuries, the church has believed she was in the “end times” and the “last days”–even Paul said that. Every day is closer to the returning of Christ. The persecution of Christians in Roman times and wars and rumors of wars, was no less brutal and extensive than it is today. Just my thoughts 🙂

  2. Abby, what a great update. I miss chatting with you. Hope you are well.

    A local Christian bookstore began to carry my book recently. I wonder if I should look into a book signing 🙂 I shared my testimony at our new home church this past week. Perhaps some of them would be interested in a book (something I didn’t mention in the testimony as it wasn’t super relevant).

    Love you!

    With hope, Brenna

    1. Brenna, I’m so happy to hear from you! That’s amazing what God is doing through you and for you! I miss you too! New home church–did you move recently? You should look into a book signing! The one I did before wasn’t a huge crowd but I made some friends and did sell a few books. I’m hoping this one will be a little more productive given the timing of the Bible study … Love!

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