I finished my quiet time this morning, pleased with the four full pages of prayer in my journal. You see, I’m trying to sort this simplicity thing out. I’m trying to find MY calling, MY truth, MY way – you know the “special purpose that God has for each of us.” The reason we be.
I worry that I’m not using MY talent, the gifts God gave ME. What if I’m not writing in the right venues, what if I need to put down my pen and DO something. I grabbed Brave’s leash and headed out the door the welcoming promise of October.
Here is October, barreling down on me, and I’m no more sorted, planned, completed, figured out or purposeful than I was before. Or before that, or before that. So, I kept my prayer going.
God, what am I going to write about this month? What can I share with others in October to help them be wary of the Predatory Lies so pervasive in the world?
And finally, God interrupted me.
Love, will you ever quit talking? Even our special times are filled with your words, your pages. Isn’t this supposed to be a conversation?
You do well to point out the lies that you believed and to warn others to be clothed in my armor and to be on their guard and to stand firm against the lies of the devil. But, what then? If you are standing against something, shouldn’t you also stand for something? If there is a lie, there is also a truth. If you know truth, you won’t fall for the lie.
I am the way the truth and the life. You must know me.
Understand this, I already know you. Yes, I love to hear your prayers, but you cannot tell me anything I do not know. I know your needs before you feel them, I know the pulses of your heart, I know when you sit and rise and, Dear One, I know your very soul. It is my breath.
But you don’t know me. If you spend the rest of your life sitting in my lap, querying me about myself – my goodness, my glory, my love, my wisdom, you will never know me fully. Shouldn’t you set your heart to the task of knowing me, even as I know you? (1 Cor. 13:12) It will take your life time.
So, hush. My friend, David, a man after my own heart, learned this. It became his life’s pursuit and the intention of his eternity.
“The one thing I ask of the LORD—the thing I seek most—is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, delighting in the LORD’s perfections and meditating in his Temple.” Ps. 27:4
So, I will hush. My new intention, life plan, purpose and pursuit is to listen and see before I speak or write. To attend to my Savior and to see Him in His glorious October. This month, I will share with you where I find truth. Together we can revel in His presence.
P.S. I will be posting once a week in October.